All about me again...
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| basics |
| whats your name?: | Sean |
| what do people call you?: | Sean or Bailey |
| where you named after anything?: | Sean Connery I believe |
| if you were born the oppisite sex what would your name be?: | i can't remember what the girl name my parents had for me was |
| do people spell/say your name wrong?: | Constantly |
| if you could change your name what would you change it to?: | I wouldn't |
| gender?: | Male |
| birthday?: | May 1 |
| age?: | 22 |
| age you act?: | 22 |
| age you want to be?: | 8 |
| height?: | 6'3" |
| eye color?: | Green - Blue-ish with contacts in |
| happy with it?: | yup |
| natural hair color?: | brown |
| happy with it? if not do you dye it?: | cool with it |
| righty or lefty?: | lefty |
| family?: | mom/dad/bro/sis/2nephews |
| pets?: | 3 dogs, 1 cat, 2 birds |
| peircings?: | used to |
| tatoos?: | want to |
| love and stuff |
| single?: | yup |
| who are you with, or who do you want to be with?: | no one/not sure atm |
| are you in love?: | nope |
| have you ever been in love, if so how many times?: | i'd say once |
| do you believe in love at first sight?: | not usually |
| is it possible to be faithful to one person for ever?: | definitely |
| do you want to get married?: | eventually |
| do you want to have kids?: | eventually |
| how many?: | 2, but I can negotiate |
| do you believe in divorce?: | sure |
| do you belive in true love?: | sure |
| do you consider love a mistake?: | how? |
| turn-ons?: | women |
| turns-offs?: | men |
| do you think the oppisite sex finds you attractive?: | i sure hope so |
| what is best about the opposite sex?: | the beauty |
| what is worst about the oppisite sex?: | none are with me |
| are you a virgin?: | no |
| do you belive you should be in love to have sex?: | meh, no |
| how far have you gone?: | pretty deep? wtf |
| how many people have you had sex with?: | 1 |
| do other people consider you a slut?: | nope |
| right at this moment... |
| where are you?: | my room |
| what can you see out your window?: | rain |
| are you listening to music?: | no |
| are you lonely or tired?: | i'm alone and im tired, but not lonely |
| use 5 words to decribe how you are feeling:: | interested, tired, apathetic, warm, uninterested |
| are you talking to anyone online? if so who?: | nope |
| are you talking to anyone of the phone? if so who?: | nope |
| what are you wearing?: | shorts/tshirt |
| what are you doing?: | this |
| whats on your mousepad?: | my mouse |
| friends |
| how many true friends do you have?: | 2 true friends, but many close ones |
| are you a loner?: | nope |
| who is your best friend?: | alex/kashaf |
| oldest?: | me |
| newest?: | uhh tie |
| shyest?: | me |
| loudest?: | kashaf |
| smartest?: | we have different specialties |
| ditziest?: | none |
| funniest?: | alex |
| who is the best listener?: | me |
| do you prefer to hang out with one friend or a group of friends?: | depends. both options are good. |
| who do you wish you were closer to?: | the close friends from above |
| who knows the most about you?: | varies... but maybe dharm |
| who knows the least about you?: | lotsa ppl |
| who do you trust the most?: | depends with what, but alex/kashaf |
| the least?: | again lots of ppl |
| who do you fight with the most?: | alex |
| who do you talk to online the most?: | dammit... alex |
| who do you talk to on the phone the most?: | i hardly use the phone if i can |
| do you trust others easily?: | i'm working on that |
| name one who's arms you feel safe in:: | no one at the moment |
| who house were you at last?: | dharm's |
| who's your second family?: | none |
| who lives the farthest away?: | kashaf |
| do you.... |
| smoke?: | no |
| drink alcohol?: | yes |
| do drugs?: | from time to time |
| pray?: | save me jebus |
| go to church?: | negatory |
| sleep with stuffed animals?: | nein |
| take walks in the rain?: | only if i have to |
| dance in the rain?: | not that i recall |
| do any sports? if so which ones?: | i do watching sports |
| sleep around?: | yes |
| lie a lot?: | i just did |
| steal?: | sure its fun |
| gamble?: | scratchy tickets mostly |
| have you ever.... |
| kissed a stranger?: | maybe |
| slept with a stranger?: | again nope |
| spun until you were so dizzy you couldn't walk?: | It's fun. I'll do it again sometime. |
| screamed so much you lost your voice?: | oh yea |
| laughed so much it was painful?: | many times |
| cried so much it was painful?: | crying is painful in itself |
| gone skinny dipping?: | nope |
| played strip poker?: | nope |
| had a medical emergency?: | probably |
| ran away from home?: | never needed to |
| done something extremely unexpected?: | da |
| slept outside?: | pretty sure yes, but i cant remember |
| been onstage?: | not acting though |
| deep stuff.... |
| whats your biggest fear?: | not succeeding |
| what was your weirdest dream?: | i dont remember |
| scariest dream?: | probably one with spiders all over my bed |
| do you have a reoccuring dream?: | used to dream about spiders a lot |
| what was your best dream?: | i dont remember |
| what IS your dream?: | ooh. to be comfortable in my own skin and in turn, life |
| do you live in the moment?: | not even |
| what you greatest stregth?: | <--------pointing out spelling flaws |
| whats your greatest weakness?: | kryptonite |
| do you have a motto you live by?: | nah |
| if your life were a movie what would it be called?: | Indecision |
| do you have any bad habits?: | lip biting, procrastination |
| do you have any secrets?: | who doesn't? |
| are you fake?: | i keep it real |
| what do you want to do in life?: | keep it real |
| are you a daredevil?: | nope |
| are you predictable?: | maybe |
| do you keep a journal/diary?: | i call it a man blog dammit |
| if you could change one thing about you would you? what would it be?: | I'm gonna say no. There that's one down. |
| if you were someone else, would you be friends with yourself?: | no i'm an ass |
| do you think your a good person?: | i think i am |
| do you think your emotionally strong?: | getting there |
| do you regret anything?: | not worth regretting things |
| do you think life has been good so far?: | better than many other people's lives |
| what do you like most about you body?: | no comment |
| least?: | weight |
| are you trust worthy?: | I pride myself on that shit |
| are you gullible?: | no because i trust no one |
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I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired
It's almost comical sometimes the way problems in your life creep up on you. In reality, many of these problems have been there for quite some time, it's just taken a while to recognize them. When the time comes for a person to finally see that they have a problem, it comes as a shock. You realize the signs and symptoms have been there, but you've failed to notice them. The revelation comes down hard and it's almost too much to bare.
I used to think I was just a lazy person who procrastinated all the time. I definitely knew I wasn't the most outgoing person, but I've tried to improve that over the years. Taking the journalism program was a way for me to force myself to come out of my shell. Again I've improved from where I was, but I think I've come to the conclusion that it's something bigger than just shyness.
I'll use a situation I'm going through right now as an example. We go through cycles in our Newspaper class. When we do the paper portion, we must contribute 18-inches of newspaper copy to get a passing grade. Right now I have no real complete story done. I'm pretty sure over the past few weeks I've had the opportunity to go out and do stories, but something from inside me pulls me back.
Last year and the year before I felt the same thing, but I was able to supress it so I could get the job done. This year, however, it's seemed to have increased ten-fold. I feel like I have this wretching feeling at the bottom of my chest in my diaphragm area. It is my constant worrying about approaching someone for an interview. I've completely gotten over the idea of someone shooting me down and not talking to me; that doesn't phase me anymore. What bothers me is actually doing it. And I feel way worse about doing phone interviews over in-person interviews. But I hate both a lot.
When I speak to people I sometimes have significant trouble getting the thoughts I want to say out of my mouth. It's almost overwhelming at times and it seems to be uncontrollable. I think it's my inner fear of saying something stupid that's doing it. It's changed who I am over time as well.
I used to be pretty opinionated on subjects, but over the last few years I've slowly become complacent or more apathetic to what people are arguing about. It's like I've lost the ability to think up arguments in a subject that matters to me. Sure there are the odd times where I can believe in something and argue it, but I think the majority of the time it's the opposite.
I'm sick of feeling this way and it's becoming such a debilitating issue for me. I want to put an end to it, but at the same time I don't totally feel comfortable talking to a therapist about it. I firmly believe that action is the best option here and just talking about it will solve nothing, because I already know what's wrong with me, I don't need confirmation. Also, while medication seems like the best escape at the moment, I'm not too sure I'd like the side effects.
I hate journalism. But I've never failed anything before, I can't start now.
Peace.
The dreaded Hiatus rears its head...
EDIT: I got my big computer fixed so my hiatus was only a short-lived one. I was lucky enough my friend offered to do it that night and I got it back today (saturday). My laptop will have to wait though.Hey all.. With my computers both deciding to die on me at the same time, I'll probably not be blogging as much for a while.
Just an update: I have to replace the Motherboard on my big computer ($160). On my laptop the lcd screen conked out on me. They say my warranty ended on September 3rd, yet I bought it on October 16th or something. I don't have the receipt anymore, so I'm not too sure I can fight it. This might mean I'd have to pay for it out of my own pocket... *sigh* and it isn't pennies either from what I've been told...
If by any slim chance my computer decides to stay on long enough, and I have something valid to say, I'll post something.
Since I'm lucky enough to have computers at school I'll be visiting your blogs regularly and commenting as usual. I'm not too sure I'd post from there though.
There will be no msn as well. *sigh* I'm going to go nuts here. Ever since I got my first computer I don't think I've been without it for any real period of time. Even when the Internet dies I get all antsy and don't know what to do with myself.
Okay I'm out for now.
Peace.
Survey says?
I stole this from
Monika who in turn stole it from someone else. I can't help myself sometimes...
Grub-ology:* What is your salad dressing of choice? I think cesar.
* What is your favorite fast food restaurant? I'm picky, but I'll go with Taco Bell
* What is your favorite sit down restaurant? Wimpy's is gross, but a nice place to eat.
* On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? The more drunk, the larger the tip.
* What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? Spaghetti!
* Name three foods you detest above all others. Olives, Feta cheese, and yeah boiled carrots.
* What is your favorite dish to order in a Chinese restaurant? Anything with Chicken, mixed Vegetables and rice/noodles
* What are your pizza topping(s) of choice? Pepperoni, Ground Beef, Green Peppers, Mushrooms.
* What do you like to put on your toast? umm... Butter or Peanut Butter or Jam
* What is your favorite type of gum? Anything but the kind my place makes =)
Tech-ology:* Number of contacts in your cell phone? I'm not counting. Let's say 20.
* Number of contacts in your e-mail address book? Again. But let's up it and say 40? sure.
* What is your wallpaper on your computer? It's over there --->
* What is your screensaver on your computer? Screen savers are no good.
* Are there naked pictures saved on your computer? Saved? Not any more!
* How many land line phones do you have in your house? I don't use them, buuuut...5
* How many televisions are in your house? 4
* What kitchen appliance do you use the least? The thing below the stove...umm.. i can't remember its name.
* What is the format of the radio station you listen to the most? the format? AM640 in the morning, then I do the mp3 thing the rest of the day.
Bi-ology:* What do you consider to be your best physical attribute? Others decide that not me.
* Are you right handed or left handed? Why I'm left handed.
* Do you like your smile? Not even.
* Have you ever had anything removed from your body? wisdoms, tonsils...that's about it
* Would you like to? I can't afford to lose any more...
* Do you prefer to read when you go to the bathroom? Why not, sue me!
* Which of your five senses do you think is keenest? Not sight....Hearing I think.
* When was the last time you had a cavity? Like 10 years ago...
* What is the heaviest item you lift regularly? A skid at work i think.
* Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Does passed out count? If so, a few times =P
Misc-ology:* If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? uhh, no thanks
* If you could change your first name, what would you change it to? I don't want to change it
* How do you express your artistic side? I write, I used to draw, I'm beginning to take pictures.
* What color do you think you look best in? Black, Darker Red, and I like Blue but probably darker is better
* How long do you think you could last in a medium security prison? Til shower, then i'm gone.
* Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? Nope.
* If we weren't bound by society's conventions, do you have a relative you would make a pass at? I am bound by society's conventions thank you, but for the sake of this survey, no.
* How often do you go to church? I've been in a church once, and it was for a funeral when I was about 10.
* Have you ever saved someone's life? I'm too busy savin my own.
* Has someone ever saved yours? Not directly,but there are people and situations that have changed my perspective a lot.
Dare-ology:For this last section, if you would do it for less or more money, indicate how much.
* Would you walk naked for a half mile down a public street for $100,000? Of course.
* Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100? Probably not
* Would you have sex with a member of the same sex for $10,000? No dude. No.
* Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? Again, no.
* Would you never blog again for $50,000? Screw y'all I'm takin my money and runnin
* Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000? If someone asked ME to pose it'd be a magazine that clearly no one reads so whatever man, I'd do it (haha yeah right)
* Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? I'd regret it, but I'd have one thousand dollars in cash money!!
* Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000? no man.
* Would you shave your head and get your entire body waxed for $5,000? It'll grow back, right?
* Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000? It's sad, but no.
I hate computers
I am so pissed off right now! Ugh!
My big computer has been wonky for the past while and I need to get a new motherboard for it. The problem is that I've been unable to work out a proper time with my friend who has his store, so he can fix it for me. Now after next week he'll be going on Ramadan and basically will be AWOL for a month.
Oh but that's not all. Today I took my laptop in to school, plugged it in, then when i turned it on, the screen didn't work! My friend figures I hit it against something or the plug at school sucked.
Now I have to send it in to Toshiba and get it fixed or something. With my luck too, the big computer will konk out on me in the mean time and I'll be left with nothing unless I'm at school.
There goes all my shit on my laptop now :(
Such a fucking bummer...
Pic-o-licious
I haven't got a lot to post about at the moment, but over the past week I taken a few pics that I enjoy and I've decided to post a few of them with a bit of background decription.
Last Monday, Sept. 11, I was in a neighbourhood somewhat near my school and where my Grandparents lived. I was there hoping to get a story, but that fell through on me due to my own stupidity. Anyway, this neighbourhood isn't the greatest, and I found these basketball nets, however all four and their partners are lacking said nets. It sort of sums up what these kids have to go through. They can't even play some basketball because someone stole the rims (by the looks of it anyway). So what happens? Well unfortunately some turn to crime because they have nothing better to do.
This picture was taken at Riverdale Park in East York on Wednesday Sept. 13. I was with a couple friends of mine. The weather was ideal for this man to fly his kite in, however he added a twist by wearing rollerblades and rolling around in the grass when the wind pulled his kite along.
I was out with a friend of mine on the Danforth and had some food. He was planning on writing a food review and in turn was taking pictures. I had my camera with me so I decided to do the same. The food tasted good, but I was sick the rest of the night, and it wasn't fun.
Today I went to the Toronto Maple Leafs intersquad game at the Ricoh Coliseum. This pic is when they changed the goalies mid-period and both sides took shots on them to warm them up. It was a fun day. Especially since we got to see all the Leafs play a great game against eachother. And the Ricoh Coliseum where the AHL offiliate Toronto Marlies play is a great venue to get up and personal with the players.
After leaving the game we walked down harbourfront because it was such a nice day. On our walk we saw this quintet of string players performing a free concert in a little grassy area. It was tucked away from everything it seemed and there were a lot of people enjoying the show. I was almost overwhelmed at the site. It's not too often you can see a classical music concert in the city like this. I was glad to see some class and culture being shown today.
That was the gist of my week as shown through a few tantalizing pictures.
Peace
Street sense
A 65-year-old woman died on Monday after an address mix-up resulted in the ambulance going to a street on essentially the other side of the city.
Ever since the amalgamation of the boroughs of Toronto, East York, Scarborough, North York and Etobicoke to create the mega city of Toronto in 1998, this issue has come up time and again, although I haven't heard of anything this serious.
There are reportedly 96 street names that are dubplicates and amazingly 4 that are triplicates. This causes issues for not only ambulances, but to a lesser extent food delivery people, taxis, the post office and more.
As I was watching the news tonight I found that many people interviewed appeared to actually be against the possible changing of their street name should the situation warrant it. Their arguments were incredibly asinine, especially when in the end the issue comes down to saving peoples lives. One man said he'd lived on the street all his life and he'd grown comfortable with it being that name. Another woman said she had taught her four and seven year old children the street name, but if it changed she would have to teach them again! poor people!
This issue should have been fixed when the boroughs joined nearly nine years ago. Instead, what the incredibly smart city did was spend $500,000 on a commission to look into it; they ended up voting to keep the names the same!
It's unfortunate some innocent woman had to die to get people's attention on this issue. I hope the city now moves quickly on this issue so as to potentially save more lives; even if it's at the cost of those poor people not liking the change.
Help me out here
Over the past few months or so I've gotten somewhat hooked on two tattoo shows.
The first (left) is Inked and the second (bottom) is Miami Ink. The two shows are pretty much very similar in setup. They chronicle the daily life of the tattoo artists within their respective parlours. They show them doing their work, and also talk about the people who come in to get work done and what the tattoo means to them.
In the last year or two the itch to get a tattoo has been growing on me and these shows aren't curbing my enthusiasm one bit. Seeing the people come in and explain their reasons for getting the tattoos however, has made my decision of what tattoo to get all the harder.
I want something that will have significant meaning to me now as well as in the very distant future. As in, when I'm on my deathbed I'll be like, "yeah that tattoo was worth getting."
I always look around at different pictures and think they look cool or whatever, but in the end I can always tell I'll be sick of it in due time and with a tattoo that's not something you want.
In the future when/if I have a kid(s) I'll want to get a tattoo of their name somewhere, but until then finding something unique and significant seems impossible. Maybe a sign I'm not ready to get one, I guess.
Just for kicks though I thought I'd post a question. What was your motivation behind getting your tattoo and what is it/ are they? If you don't have a tattoo you can still tell me things or reasons you feel would be valid enough to warrant having a tattoo of.
Peace.
Let it Die
It's over. The summer of 2006 has been put to sleep. Tomorrow will mark my first day of school since the end of April and I've got mixed feelings.
Of course I want to go back, seeing as this is my final year and all, but at the same time I don't want to go back, seeing as this is my final year and all. I'm kind of nervous about the future at the moment. I don't think I've truly taken the last two years very seriously. Meaning I don't know if I've grasped at the idea that I've been in school studying a specific course so I can have a specific outcome in the end.
This year seems all that more daunting because in second semester I have to begin my job placement. This means I have only until December essentially before I'm put out there in the 'real world' of working.
I'm still scared of not knowing what I wish to pursue when it's all said and done. I'm not too sure of any of the potential jobs out there. And if I decide to choose another path aside from journalism, I haven't got a clue as to what else I could take that would be sufficient enough to make me happy while financially safe.
I've contemplated taking English or becoming a teacher in the recent past. These two things sound great, but for teaching it would require a lot more school and English would also see me in school longer because that major is useless unless it's at least a Master's in my opinion.
I also tell myself that my worrying is for not. Every transition I've gone through in life has seemed incredibly foreboding as it approached, but afterwards it's always been infinitely easier. So I keep saying that my next hurdle may seem daunting now, but in the end it's just like any other hurdle I've leaped over before and I can't win the race unless I keep jumping over them (tackiest metaphor ever).
Judging from my past everything will be fine. I'm still slightly nervous at the upcoming semester and if I can hold up my marks while keeping my job. I want to succeed and this semester will go a long way to determine if that will be the case. I hope it is.
Peace.
Oh, and judging from how I continued to post entries at the end of last semester with all it's hellish demands, I don't foresee any problems with me continuing to post regularly. Just thought I'd say that, given all the hiatuses that may be coming or are already here =P
Gimme some 'Crank' yo
Tonight I went out and watched a movie. That movie was Crank, starring Jason Statham (Snatch, The Transporter movies). From the commercials and previews I've seen of the movie I was expecting an action packed thrillride of that similar to The Transporter and its sequel. This one, however, I knew would be a little more over the top and out there in comparison. And man, it was.
First off, a brief overview of the movie for those who don't know what it's about. Chev Chelios is a man who's been injected with a lethal poison and he only has one hour to live. His mission is to find the guy who did it, and to give him pay back, along with hopefully finding the antedote. This sets the pace for a non-stop action thrill ride. Knowing he's essentially already dead, Chelios shows no mercy as he pummels along trying to find where the man responsible for all this is. In the meantime, he must keep his adrenaline levels up or else his heart will succomb to the poisons within him.
Throughout the film Chelios goes through disorientation and hallucinations from his injection, along with other drugs he happens upon along the way. The camera work definitely allows you to experience what he's experiencing on his ride. At the start of the movie we get a first person viewpoint at his disorientation after waking up from his sleep. Later on in the movie while on some "Haitian shit" we experience his warped mind as he tries to find his way. The work done camera-wise was very good and something I've rarely seen in films. Only Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas went a little further in its amazing visual portrayal of a man fucked on too much drugs.
Statham's acting in the movie doesn't really vary much from any of the other characters he's portrayed in movies past. He's essentially the no bullshit kinda guy with a side of humour that doesn't always seem to humourous to him. Playing this character over and over makes it seem like not too much of an acting stretch. However, he plays this kind of guy well and they always say what ain't broke don't fix it, right?
The other characters in the film include the latino mafia guys he has to deal with. These guys are all
very latino. Sometimes they're almost over the top. His girlfriend is played by Amy Smart (Butterfly Effect). She's essentially a pot head and comes across as really ditsy most of the time (in fact, none of the women in this film are portrayed in any kind of positive light). It's not annoying in the film, but it adds quite a bit of comedy, even in situations like a car chase where she's going down on him to keep his adrenaline up. Effren Ramirez (Pedro in Napolean Dynamite) gives a horrible effort at an eccentric gay guy in the movie. His character Kaylo finds out where people are and whatnot for Chelios. His role is somewhat pivotal but small. Chelios' doctor in the film is played by country singer Dwight Yoakam. He doesn't do too bad, but his role is also quite small, providing necessary medical advice for Chelios over the phone the majority of the time. For the most part though, we aren't to be concerned with the other characters as the movie moves fast enough on the mission Chelios is on to find the guy who did this. It's a constant go go go kind of film, with little rest.
This movie offers
a lot of action. It can be unrealistic at times, but that also provides the comedy. It's very fast paced and makes good use of its 87 minutes of film time. I recommend it for its creativity and outlandishness if anything.
Rating: 4/5
